You are alive only in my dreams.

I took out my books and put it on the table. I looked at them, trying hard to revise all the topic that I have just learned in school this week. But I just cannot remember a single thing, I just feel sad. Just sad.

I took out my textbook and put in on the table which was right infront of me & still I can forget where I put and looked for it all over the room. I took out some paper from the drawer & when I put it back, I put my Eng file inside too & I din notice it. At 6.15pm I came out from my room & I saw my auntie. She doesn't know I was at home. She was shock to see me coming out from my room & so she ask me did I eaten anything today & I just remember that I have not eaten anything. She ask me if I am hungry I say no...

My mind was blank. I feel that I am living my life aimlessly. I told myself don't take it too hard because something cannot change no matter how sad you are. In fact I have to accept reality & carry on with my life.

I am trying so hard but my mind just don't allow me to.
I told myself I should keep you inside my heart and stop being silly.
But I just cannot do it..

Bi, I promise you that once after I settle down with my studies I will go visit you. Tell me what you want & I will get it for you :)

P.S I have been very strong today because when I was looking at your pictures I no longer cry. :) BUT this do not means that I no longer miss you or miss you lesser.

* I should thanks my friends for tha because they have been by my side.

Please do not worry about us.

Many loves, Enny