Totally suck.

Yes, I screwed up my life & is totally suck.
I am so disappointed with myself. YES MYSELF!
I cannot blame anybody because nobody have even stopped me.
I just gave up & I know I should not be doing that.

Disappointment..
I need someone to talk to & where are they? When I am down & all alone, I will start looking for those who I depend on when I am unhappy but somehow I cannot find them anymore.
WHY are all those that I needed did not stay with me? Why you all left me so hopelessly. :(

I am not even a bit happy with myself. I suck.

I miss you Marcus, I really really miss you a lot.. If you are here now, I will be able to forget all the unhappy and keep laughing stupidly with you, but now I can only look into you picture and cry whenever I think about the past..